Running fast getting nowhere

My mom had to fight for every visit with us. The court system had us going to therapists and hearings to determine custody. My heart was being ripped apart. I loved my mom and dad but loathed the woman my dad was with. In his presence she treated us well but when he was at work she said horrible things. “Your father took you so he would not have to pay child support!”  ” Your mother does not want you either just the child support!”  After visiting with my mother at the beach one day, I ran away to get back to her, I thought if I could get back to that beach she would still be there. I walked for hours starting at the beach near our house. I figured all the beaches had to be connected and if I followed the beach for long enough it would lead to that beach. It was a child’s logic, and I ended up near town eventually and a shopping center. I had not taken money or food. A nice lady noticed me and called the police. The policeman took me to the station and called my mom and dad. My mom tried to come get me but only my dad could because he had temporary custody. Later my dad’s girlfriend told me that a man could have found me and in graphic detail what he could have done to me. Terrifying me of running away again and of course not in front of my dad.